An episode of self doubt

Lack of control
A whirlwind in my mind

Of what ifs and what nots

Of am I worthy of the chance

Of this too shall pass

Loser

If the giver is the loser
then I will keep it all to myself

Dismissed

The specifics that matter

It is not the ever present annoyance
It is the blistering temptation of violence
reigned in by the smudge of leftover restraint

It is not the "aiya they emo as usual"
It is the heart wrenching, throat constricting, dry eyes type of distress

Yes
These are the dismissed specifics

Preach

When the words you need to hear
Are the words you preached to others

Unfortunately
You're never getting them returned to you

Tiny

Voices gnawing at the corner of my mind
Whispering words of inadequacy
Quietly pleading for validation

#wherestheselfaffirmation

water and oil

Show me what is as permanent as
the peaks and troughs of the oceans
the dance between the sun and moon
and the hole in my heart

Warmth