Loser

If the giver is the loser
then I will keep it all to myself

Dismissed

The specifics that matter

It is not the ever present annoyance
It is the blistering temptation of violence
reigned in by the smudge of leftover restraint

It is not the "aiya they emo as usual"
It is the heart wrenching, throat constricting, dry eyes type of distress

Yes
These are the dismissed specifics

Preach

When the words you need to hear
Are the words you preached to others

Unfortunately
You're never getting them returned to you

Tiny

Voices gnawing at the corner of my mind
Whispering words of inadequacy
Quietly pleading for validation

#wherestheselfaffirmation

water and oil

Show me what is as permanent as
the peaks and troughs of the oceans
the dance between the sun and moon
and the hole in my heart

Warmth

Growth

Almost forgot how 

change can feel as frightening as stagnation

Perhaps even more frightening

bleed in black

Words fallen to
deaf ears
close hearts
waiting for the day
that I can say
I. told. you. so.

Precariously

Oh how challenging it is to keep the scales balanced

The difference between staying to learn more and being afraid of change

The margin between levelled minded perspective and dwelling too much into the past

The gap between you and me